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Can i move on?

  I confessed for the first time to a guy. And that probably my last time confess to a guy too. I wish i didnt confess but i did and i glad that i get rejected properly. I never expecred i was brave enough to confess since i was so scared of getting the answer. Before this, i was falling in love with my bestfriends for 5 years but i just kept it and move on. But this time, i will never turn away and finally i said it.



''You will get a better guy than me that would understand you''

 Those are his answers. I confessed to him on the 23th of November 2018 at 9 something. Do you get how it felt how it feels to get rejected? Well,it did hurts since the next day will be my older sister's wedding ceremony. I get hold of my tears, and i get through that day by getting drunk. Sounds childish right? 
 He never reply me properly after i confessed and he never liked my pictures on Instagram ( he usually does) and he rarely looked up on my status on instagram too. And he never read my status on whatsapp. I became distant too, well , i usually play games that he and i would always together... on a different time with him. And he never tried to find me too as before ( he would call me up or spam chat to ask me to play with him ). I managed to move on, somehow as time passes me by.


 And today would be the first time, he online on PUBG at the same time with me. And he... invited me. I don't know how to react, and i would eventually think that because he still treated me as a friend. And... we played but i was dying so fast on that match and he asked me


'' hey , you still there? wait for me for a while, i will finished this game as soon as possible."

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