Diaries of a rockstar girl

Right,i forgot to write here about something important.My bestfriend told me that he was thinking bout something,in his mind lately.well,of course I did asked him what's wrong.but he won't let me know.He thought that this mess might ended up our friendship.So,i was really curious that he might know the truth about my feelings.At the end,he speaks up and said " I heard that you liked me all these times,even my girl knew bout it" How could I tell him?i don't even want any trouble for both us.So,I make up any excuses to save our friendship.I told him that I liked him back in the 4th grade.So,he was teasing me and saying that I'm such a stalker.well,i never dared enough to talk to an innocent look boy who has a cute little smile.But still,half of my heart felt uneasy about what just happening to both of us.We're just started our friendship back and getting more closer but someone ruined our happiness.I almost gavr up that time but he told me thay everything...

I wanted to tell you just once the love I just can’t hold back All the time I looked your way I want to tell you everything Today, I want you Today, I want to hold you in my arms The more I look at you, the more tears fall behind your back

At that time, I was busy going to each class to inform the students about something related to our school koperasi.That was the first time I met him.Well, I knew him before just as a Facebook friend only.We have the same interest on club song but never thought that could meet up in a real life.Back to the story,he started the conversation after a few days after that.Asking whether i still remember him or not.Then,we continued our conversation at night and hope to see each other in school if both of us accidentally meet up.The next day,i ket him walking alone and smile at me.Well,I'm not using my spectacle so I hardly see his face.Funny thing,my friend thought that he was crazy for suddenly smiling at us.He was trying to be friendly but I messed up and hit him.That's how we started our friendship.Then,it continued for a few days,he always hit ny head and I tickles his round stomach.My friends didn't really like him because he always ran to me and interrupt our conversation.I...

 Recently , he has been chatting with me since Monday . The conversation began perfectly, yeah i do miss him as a bestfriend. I been through a lot to forgets my feelings on him so , I think i should continue my friendship with him . Something about our conversation makes me almost teared up . It feels like the old days where there's only me and him . Chatting without saying goodbye and continue again on the next day . We talked like we haven't chatting for 10 years . Don't worry , cos this may be the last we were chatting . I'm too busy with my homeworks , and he busy with his life,so we wont able to meet or chatting till the next school holidays .  Regarding of learning english , my friend said that my English have improve a lot . Well , I better keep my eyes on my writing , tenses , verbs , nouns and etc . I'd been trying so hard on learning new english words which i can use it easily when i write an essay .

   as you know , i've been changing everything about my life for this year . I change my style , cut my hair short , being more happy than before . It feels like the burden i've carried before is gone . How to say ? Well , last year , you all know that I had a crush on my own bestfriend for 4 years , so all my act and attitude when i'm facing him kind of being control and i can't do what i want to be . But , on a media social , i can talk everything and being wild . i acting like that becausse i just scared that he find i'm too unattractive and treated me as a GUY bestfriend . But now , it changed completely . I can have a crush with a lot of guy , meeting new people , being friends with everyone , be the real me and sometimes , i'm being annoying all the way i wanted to be . hahaha ~    Even sometimes I still miss him , not because I had a feeling towards him but he's the only guy who know everything bout my life . Doesn't matter when I'm twisted ,...

Geez , two more days and I stuck here at my house doing nothing . I'm feeling anxious and nervous at the same time but i try to cool myself down . just to make sure i didn't have a heart attack . just to be sure , i'm trying to pray to God , hoping that my result won't be bad as my UPSR result . It totally suck and i'm ruined my primary school and my last year schooling at that school . I was ashamed of my result and couldn't stopped crying over it . I don't want it to be the same as before . I totally tried my best to study and pray to God . I just hoping my hard work will finally turn into the happiest day in my life . I don't want to disappoint my parents , well my mum will be back home tomorrow after more than a week staying at the hospital .  Dear God ,  I pray from the bottom of my heart . Please give me a chance to give my parents happiness and makes they proud of me . They give me high expectation bcos im the only their child who still on ...

 let me tell you guys a stories . which i suddenly think of someone , he's my first guy bestfriend . He is cute , open minded , cheerful ,awesome and also a caring person. I never thought i forget him for this times because of trying to win my crush heart . i left my bestfriend . I'm so regret and i know i made a big mistake for chasing my crush and leave my friend behind .  His name is Andy . Yet , i never met him before but i dont give a shit about how he looks or how's his attitude . What importance for me is he was incredibly kind and he always solved my problems with my crush . :( He called me when he missed me , he text me wherever I am . I think my new guy bestfriend really opposite to Andy's . He always there for me even though he had a problems with his self . He dare to thought me Chinese at first but I'm not taking serious of his teaching and finally no more Chinese lessons . He know everything about my life , my old crush , my problems at school , ho...