Diaries of a rockstar girl

As you can remember, I sit with different girl this year at class, not with my bestfriend. She is a pretty looking girl with innocent face. She has this cute little voice and many guys attracted to her. Despite that,she is in a relationship for 7 months if I'm not mistaken. But,the shocking news is this morning she told me that she is interested with my guy bestfriend. How come it turn out like this again? I felt like my heart wanna explode but I put up a smile infront of her. She told me " he is so machoooo " " it was fun being with his friend and him." " I wanna be friend with him.I wanna get to know him better " " I had a crush on him since 2 years ago " When I asked her why did she suddenly appeared a sudden interest on him lately. This is what she said. " we made a lot of eye contact especially for the past few weeks.he always used this way to go to his class every morning, that when we glaring at each other ". That ...

This is some kind of unfinished lyrics made by me. Somehow, I was surprise that I could think of doing this for a few minutes. Well i hope you understand the message ive been saying. Enjoy ~ Spread up your wings -Kristal Ivy I'm still trying to reach you out In search of your breaking heart I'm willing to stay side to side Only to see the flowers of your soul to bloom again Pitiful heart, pitiful heart I'm trying to erase the tension between your mind When i look how hard you trying to hide Your lips wont be able to trick me Unlikely you to look this miserable I'm stand still not knowing what to do But still,I'm quietly stay to keep you in reality For that you could let it be in the past Don't try to runaway and hiding it Let's it gone by till your last broken pieces Scream out the unwanted memories that keep hanging Let the tomorrow shine your day up

 So,clearly I purposely write about this BESTFRIEND topic because I don't want people end up being like me.Well,you might think that I'm pathetic or just can't get over him,but honestly FRIENDZONE sucks .I have been keeping this for a long time,so finally I will be able to spit it out.  What is bestfriend with a guy for me? He is different from the rest of guy.Not to mention,I treated him better than my girlfriends.For those who being shy or uncomfortably being closer to guy,being his bestfriend make you think from different perspective.He can either be your girl-friend and guy-friend.I don't intend to make fun of him but he can be what you need.When you having trouble with some crap,he would listening to your story.And if you do anything wrong with other people,he would give you some advice.Some harsh advice,he doesn't like you being a bitch.I can do anything with him like what's the rest of couple have shared with each other.Well,both of us enjoy hitting each...

Back to Monday, we were having a math tuition. Since our class was full, my guy bestfriend had to seat behind me with his friend. At first, we didn't even talk. I'm doing my own exercise while they're making some noise in the class. Then, they called out at me.I turned around and laughed at their stupid jokes and we even talked about anime. Well, you know how it feels like when you have the same interest and eventually you guys become good friend. The weird thing is his friend trying to take up a few photo of me. And I trying to get up and seated on the cooler space, my bestfriend put his foot on my chair with a smirked face. I glared at him but he was acting innocent. When I reached home, his friend texted me. And suddenly confessed to me. I couldn't even believe what I was reading. But, I just can't believe his confession. Is it weird that his friend interested with me ? While my friend interested with him before this?Why don't both of us end up liking each ot...

I wonder what's makes things go wrong between us? You are the only boy who dared to walk with me even when I'm walking with my friend. Even when I'm not even comfortable being around you, you still catches me up and talk to me with your big smile. Yeah, we argued a lot during the walk but you still considered as my friend. And it went for only for while. You started ignoring me and we even pretend not to know each other anymore. I wonder I wonder why? Then this year, things being quite okay. Just okay. But yesterday, your words stroke my heart badly. I was just talking to my friend for a few seconds and you suddenly you interrupted our conversation. Of course, I was mad. You turned around and facing us and said, " shut up, you bitch ". You showed your middle finger when you saying those harsh deadly line. I was snapped. I'm so glad that we're not being close anymore. With you two-faced,you could fool me before but to regain my trust, it's a never. You ...

I did almost the same things everyday. I bet you too. I have to wake up early and force myself out from my sleeping land and my warm bed. I need to prepare things like books, making food and fill up my bottle. After that , I stare at the mirror for a few times. I let out a sigh but it feels hard. I take out a deep breath,hold it for few seconds,then let it out. Comforting myself that everything that gonna happens,there will be a reason behind of this. I pray to God for peace so that I sort of calm throughout the day. On my way to school, I probably thinking about what's gonna happens or what kind of problems will I face? Will it turn out better or worse? I still have some lingering doubt in my mind. Well,I got to say that I know sometimes it's gonna rain,things won't go well the way I wanted to be. But, all of this make me who i am today. Despite of it,there was a time that I wished time would stopped for a while,let my body and mind to relax and getting rid of exhaustion. ...

I have a good friend, he can be call as my further cousin or my cousin's relative. I knew him from small, that's because my mum were teaching his class on primary school. Until now, we haven't even lost contact because he is studying at the same class with me at tuition. I always love his cheerful attitude and honesty. Many people thought he can't read the situation and simply telling other people's secret. Appereantly,they forgot that every mankind arent perfect.So do i. Everyone have their own bad attitude and good attitude. Rather than seeing the baf side of a person,think clearly. No matter how bad you think he is,he sacrificed a lot to you guys. But up until now, he never deal anything with me. He is always supporting me in whatever situation and his warm words always heal my broken heart.He is my spy and always tell me good information about my bestfriend. How can people treats him badly? Nobody knows the feeling inside his heart.Everyday, things always end up...