Diaries of a rockstar girl

 Hey all , it's been a while . I really freaking miss this blog . I got nothing to say , so I wanna show to u guys my anime drawing . It doesn't look that pretty and perfect but I am hoping that u like it .  

I never realize , never think of our friendship will be end like this . Totally . I feel lost and frustrated . For all the time , I being his truly best girlfriend . Now , we ended and being stranger . No more laughing , stupid jokes , sharing bout everything . It all gone . I couldn't understand what's in his mind right now . He rushed making choice , without telling me or saying anything . He never told me before . He never told me that he in love with my best girlfriend . I thought I knew he well . But , I was wrong . Why he didn't tell me the truth ? At least , I know that his heart captured by my best girlfriend . Now , I'm looking like a fooled , the last person who know that he's now in a relationship with her . My heart crushed into pieces . It never turn back to normal . I feel nothing but feels like betrayed by my own best friend . Did I done something that insult or making him uncomfortable ? Everything was fine . I'm not argued with him before th...

A girl who feel strong for her life . A girl who still waiting for someone that she could never have . A girl who listens to a sad love song when she get alone . A girl who refuse to let go of her heart for another guy that loving him . A girl that hide back her tears . A girl that who stare at other cute couple that date infront of her . A girl that get high hopes then hurt the most . A girl that tried to be the best to winning her crush heart . A girl that who secretly stalking her crush on facebook or at her real life . A girl that be her crush bestfriend so to get know what happenning at his life . A girl who listen when her crush telling his problems . A girl that act cool even when her crush told her that likes other girl . eventhough I'm happy for all this .. inside , I'm not fine . I'm not okay . :(

Let's talk bout ' Friend ' . You know what ? I have a very best friend from 3D and we always hang out together . Sometimes , I went to her house and she did the same too . We're always sharing everything , mostly bout our crush . She really a good listener and she always helped me out wherever I having a problems . She always try to makes me smile and trying to give me an advice . But now , both of us no longer get along . I don't know how should I react ? Did I make mistakes ? Or hurt her feelings ? Everytime I see her , she makes me doesn't even exist in this world . She act like she doesn't know me and makes me sad , she doesn't even want to see me . I'm sorry if I busy too much that sometimes I can't talk to you . Okay ? I'm having a problems right now and I really need some space and time to think about it clearly . So , I wouldn't make any mistakes again . I miss you , Evan . :')

Words that will make you hurt if you believe it . Trust me ~ 1 . i love you 2 . i'll protect you 3 . i miss you 4 . i promise you 5 . i can't stop loving you 6 . forever yours 7 . i won't hurt you 8 . give me a chance 9 . i won't do it again 10 . i'm sorry It all lies . No matter how nice you are forgive him / her . At the end , they hurt you badly . With their own words . So , save your heart from someone who don't appreciate you .

I still remember the day me and my family were watching ,' Bangkok Thailand '. I keep on secream all the time wherever that cute guy appeared . I kept calling him ,'my korean guy or the Korean guy ' even though i knew he was a Thailand guy . Then , I quickly opened my big sister's laptop which is to find information bout that cute Thai guy . The awesome moment is when I knew something about him . His father was Thailand people while his mum was a Japanese . And I know his name now , Witsawa Thaiyanont .He was an actor and also a member of a rockie band named K-OTIC . wow , how cool is that ? Here is his picture . :D my picture for my profile facebook . i really love the way he took his pictures . No smile , but why so serious ? LOL

Here's the story began .. I argued with him again . So , it the 6th times we've fight for 3 years we became friends . It's supposed his fault but in the end .. I'm the one that he blame . I don't understand this situation at all . But maybe it true , it my fault . That's why he gets mad with me ?  Maybe I shouldn't gave my old number to him . He reading my all message and reveal my friends secret ... I know he just kidding that time , but why I suddenly take it seriously ? I shouldn't doing like this for the very first time . No kidding , he was trying to call me out or talked with me but I'm pretended . Why I'm acting like this ? :(((