I did almost the same things everyday. I bet you too. I have to wake up early and force myself out from my sleeping land and my warm bed. I need to prepare things like books, making food and fill up my bottle. After that , I stare at the mirror for a few times. I let out a sigh but it feels hard. I take out a deep breath,hold it for few seconds,then let it out. Comforting myself that everything that gonna happens,there will be a reason behind of this. I pray to God for peace so that I sort of calm throughout the day. On my way to school, I probably thinking about what's gonna happens or what kind of problems will I face? Will it turn out better or worse? I still have some lingering doubt in my mind. Well,I got to say that I know sometimes it's gonna rain,things won't go well the way I wanted to be. But, all of this make me who i am today. Despite of it,there was a time that I wished time would stopped for a while,let my body and mind to relax and getting rid of exhaustion. Getting immersed with the nature and take a walk watching the beautiful of scent, the sunset, the stars and the moon that apprear on night, the warm air breezing through my body and forget about the hustle and bustle life in the city.
Nothing can beats the feeling...of regret.This feeling have been bottled up inside of me for a while and i finally have the courage to write it down here. And , if i have a chance to repeat it again,i wouldnt make the same mistake to you. Yes,its you. Still remember the first time,we met at the tenis court. You approached me and asked whether you can join me playing and thats where it began. You soon asked for my number and we started texting each other. For the few first month,I dont think I have a thing for you that moment,but then I love how your feelings reached me. We started playing tenis together,hung out and take some time alone to talk about life .. everything. But, i was so stupid that I unacknowledge your feelings towards me. Im still unsure about liking you back eventhough i can feel butterflies in my stomach wherever I nere you. You did everything to show to me that love is all you got for me,and I acted that youre just my junior and nothing else. I love how...
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