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What i regret the most


Nothing can beats the feeling...of regret.This feeling have been bottled up inside of me for a while and i finally have the courage to write it down here. And , if i have a chance to repeat it again,i wouldnt make the same mistake to you. 
Yes,its you.

Still remember the first time,we met at the tenis court. You approached me and asked whether you can join me playing and thats where it began. You soon asked for my number and we started texting each other. For the few first month,I dont think I have a thing for you that moment,but then I love how your feelings reached me. We started playing tenis together,hung out and take some time alone to talk about life .. everything. But, i was so stupid that I unacknowledge your feelings towards me. Im still unsure about liking you back eventhough i can feel butterflies in my stomach wherever I nere you. You did everything to show to me that love is all you got for me,and I acted that youre just my junior and nothing else. I love how you sang to me everytime youre free and you even learnt to sing my race's song. I sense that you starting changing,and I knew you started to give up on me. But i was to confident that, you would always there to catch me up when i fall,still showering me with your love. I never knew how hurt your heart when I friendzone you(i think i did),I didnt want to meet you, to even talk to you in a seconds,to video calling you,when you asked me for a date on Valentine's day,with my lame excuse which is... studying. The wonderful things you have done to me ,when you told your mom about me. But the worst thing,after everything changed,my mom asked me ,"what happened between you and that guy?". I couldnt answered it because I lost you the moment you think that youre not important to me. And I never had the chance to tell you,that I like you too,that I was honoured to be loved by a wonderful guy like you,that I had the best memories I ever had and it happened to be you. I made a folder with the name" memories",and inside that is every records of your voice that you ever said to me. Its wrong but somehow when your name appeared on my mind,I would play all of it until I think I feel much better .I know, its late now,but if you happened to found this blog since you ever asked for my blog url but i never gave you..i dedicated these words to you. Im sorry for everything,I coudnt said all of it,but you always inside my mind. I loved you but I was to ego to admit it, I missed you and all the memories.But,you never have to worry, I wont do this thing to other person. I learnt my lesson and I hope you happy with her. 
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And, in the end, i found someone new,and I finally manage to move on from you.
Thank you for giving me such a great memories.


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