I wonder if he can see right through me. Feeling the warm of my heart as it beating faster wherever his name popped out on my facebook chat. I dont even know why, we becoming like this. I thought this. This isnt what bestfriends did in the first place. Not been able to see each other, hanging out,talking wherever see each other, calling and messenging like a normal people did with their bestfriend. Did i took a wrong step? NO. Have confessed yet? NO. I just dont get it. Then, i asked him about this matter bcos im about to blow out over these little stupid things .
Me: why cant we act like normal as the rest of people?
Him: what do you mean by that?arent we normal enough?
Me: what im trying to say is we dont even talk or see each other in a real life.
Him: ohh, i get it.So you wanna me to talk to you at school and talk about the economy, politics or some tv news?
Sorry-but i didnt want to continue those fucking chat as he was talking nonsense while im bloody serious with him.Im totally disappointed at him.
Nothing can beats the feeling...of regret.This feeling have been bottled up inside of me for a while and i finally have the courage to write it down here. And , if i have a chance to repeat it again,i wouldnt make the same mistake to you. Yes,its you. Still remember the first time,we met at the tenis court. You approached me and asked whether you can join me playing and thats where it began. You soon asked for my number and we started texting each other. For the few first month,I dont think I have a thing for you that moment,but then I love how your feelings reached me. We started playing tenis together,hung out and take some time alone to talk about life .. everything. But, i was so stupid that I unacknowledge your feelings towards me. Im still unsure about liking you back eventhough i can feel butterflies in my stomach wherever I nere you. You did everything to show to me that love is all you got for me,and I acted that youre just my junior and nothing else. I love how...
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