Diaries of a rockstar girl

 I thought we will end it this way, with silence and getting further. Until one time, i was sitting alone at the table and you and your friend suddenly joined me. Your friend sitting in the opposite of me while you sit next to me. You won't know how fast my heart beats when you sitting next to me with your eyes fixed at me when your friend asking me for help. I think if your friend don't approach me, i don't think you would go near me. You suddenly played with my phone,checking things inside it and act like nothing broken between us. You know how hard for me to keep a smile because you will ditch and took me back for some times. And then you guys gone and came again,you sit on my right site and it feels like you're closer when you asked some questions for that subject. And when i taught you, i can feels butterflies fluttering in my stomach and ... i just realized that we were alone without your friends. I totally blushed like a tomato when you show your cheeky smile and...

These past weeks, you seemed like you were ignoring me. I wonder why? After the last time we spoke, things was changed, getting worse. I don't even know what i should do. When we suddenly met up at the stairs,your head just stay low and looked down. I don't recall of us having a fight. I was searching for a perfect moment for us to talk, having a real conversation but you won't let me into your heart. When i looked into your way,and staring at your eyes,your eyes don't see me. Do you know how much, how much, i tried to talk to you. I'm waiting for you too to look like you're struggling to talk to me,but it just nothing. It's like we're living in the different world where there is no me in your life and no you in my life. :'( are you ashamed or too embarrassed to talk to me. Why won't you give a me chance to break the cold wall in your heart. Let me in so i can understand why did you do this to me. You probably won't get think,you probably don...

In my opinion, such girl and guy friendships cause nothing but trouble, especially where other people are involved. The people who the “Best Friends” are dating most times become insecure and jealous and therefore hostile to the “Best Friend”. It almost never ends well. However, like everything else in life, there can be no generalization in this matter. I’m sure there are guys and girls who have managed to remain best friends and nothing else. The most important thing is to stay true to yourself. If you really just want to be that person’s friend, then make it clear and be sure you’re both on the same page. However, if u have feelings for your “best friend”, you better speak up or you’ll be stuck in the friend zone forever. those sentences really stabbed me right through my heart. in fact , i always think of this thing. i always wonder if i made a right decision after all. :')

Hey guys, remember the girl who sit beside me?I called her Nino. Well, for the last few days, she was arguing with her boyfriend. She was crying silently with tears flowing down her cheeks. I tried to make some stupid jokes,but she just showed me her little smile. I talked to her about the two of them and finally she said, " he jealous of me for sitting next to Vins last sunday. I thought he was joking. But he was being serious and mad about it the whole day. I dont even careless when he sat with the other girl in front of my eyes because I trusted him. Why can't he believe me the way I do? ". I nodded and hug her so that she felt much better. Suddenly, she talked about my guy bestfriend when he passed our class. " why did he looks so handsome!!!  why did he have a pretty face???? ", a big smile appeared on her lips. I can see her eyes were sparkling brightly. I looked away and I know what I have to do to earn her happiness back. Then, we started to talk ...

 Last week , I went to tuition and when I headed into the class , I saw my guy bestfriend,Shen, sitting at the back. He was sitting with a cool aura surrounded him but his eyes fixed into his phone. I sighed slightly, he doesn't even looked me. I sat away from him so that he stopped playing with his phone but it was hopeless.I tried to talk with him but he just , too busy with his phone that I just talking let it away and talked to my cousin.When the door opened, I saw that guy coming through and I just turned my head down. He stopped infront of my table and I looked into him.He was giving me a sign that he wanted to sit beside me.I wonder if my bestfriend saw this but I was too busy with that guy and I gave him some space.I can see at the corner of my eyes,he was watching at us but he deserved that.Then, I turned back and started talking to his friend.I was pretty mad that I doesn't even want to look at him.Then, he said ,'' i told u to sit with me ''. I tal...

As you can remember, I sit with different girl this year at class, not with my bestfriend. She is a pretty looking girl with innocent face. She has this cute little voice and many guys attracted to her. Despite that,she is in a relationship for 7 months if I'm not mistaken. But,the shocking news is this morning she told me that she is interested with my guy bestfriend. How come it turn out like this again? I felt like my heart wanna explode but I put up a smile infront of her. She told me " he is so machoooo " " it was fun being with his friend and him." " I wanna be friend with him.I wanna get to know him better " " I had a crush on him since 2 years ago " When I asked her why did she suddenly appeared a sudden interest on him lately. This is what she said. " we made a lot of eye contact especially for the past few weeks.he always used this way to go to his class every morning, that when we glaring at each other ". That ...

This is some kind of unfinished lyrics made by me. Somehow, I was surprise that I could think of doing this for a few minutes. Well i hope you understand the message ive been saying. Enjoy ~ Spread up your wings -Kristal Ivy I'm still trying to reach you out In search of your breaking heart I'm willing to stay side to side Only to see the flowers of your soul to bloom again Pitiful heart, pitiful heart I'm trying to erase the tension between your mind When i look how hard you trying to hide Your lips wont be able to trick me Unlikely you to look this miserable I'm stand still not knowing what to do But still,I'm quietly stay to keep you in reality For that you could let it be in the past Don't try to runaway and hiding it Let's it gone by till your last broken pieces Scream out the unwanted memories that keep hanging Let the tomorrow shine your day up