Diaries of a rockstar girl

   as you know , i've been changing everything about my life for this year . I change my style , cut my hair short , being more happy than before . It feels like the burden i've carried before is gone . How to say ? Well , last year , you all know that I had a crush on my own bestfriend for 4 years , so all my act and attitude when i'm facing him kind of being control and i can't do what i want to be . But , on a media social , i can talk everything and being wild . i acting like that becausse i just scared that he find i'm too unattractive and treated me as a GUY bestfriend . But now , it changed completely . I can have a crush with a lot of guy , meeting new people , being friends with everyone , be the real me and sometimes , i'm being annoying all the way i wanted to be . hahaha ~    Even sometimes I still miss him , not because I had a feeling towards him but he's the only guy who know everything bout my life . Doesn't matter when I'm twisted ,...

Geez , two more days and I stuck here at my house doing nothing . I'm feeling anxious and nervous at the same time but i try to cool myself down . just to make sure i didn't have a heart attack . just to be sure , i'm trying to pray to God , hoping that my result won't be bad as my UPSR result . It totally suck and i'm ruined my primary school and my last year schooling at that school . I was ashamed of my result and couldn't stopped crying over it . I don't want it to be the same as before . I totally tried my best to study and pray to God . I just hoping my hard work will finally turn into the happiest day in my life . I don't want to disappoint my parents , well my mum will be back home tomorrow after more than a week staying at the hospital .  Dear God ,  I pray from the bottom of my heart . Please give me a chance to give my parents happiness and makes they proud of me . They give me high expectation bcos im the only their child who still on ...

 let me tell you guys a stories . which i suddenly think of someone , he's my first guy bestfriend . He is cute , open minded , cheerful ,awesome and also a caring person. I never thought i forget him for this times because of trying to win my crush heart . i left my bestfriend . I'm so regret and i know i made a big mistake for chasing my crush and leave my friend behind .  His name is Andy . Yet , i never met him before but i dont give a shit about how he looks or how's his attitude . What importance for me is he was incredibly kind and he always solved my problems with my crush . :( He called me when he missed me , he text me wherever I am . I think my new guy bestfriend really opposite to Andy's . He always there for me even though he had a problems with his self . He dare to thought me Chinese at first but I'm not taking serious of his teaching and finally no more Chinese lessons . He know everything about my life , my old crush , my problems at school , ho...

i know we text sometimes , but our friendship have been stuck like this . We've been acting like strangers . You asked me unexpected things about that girl . I know you tried to push me away and acting cooled . Your text , it different that it used to be . You just saying '' okay '' . No fullstop . It feels like you force yourself to text me . Yet , I know there's no one beside me that know everything about you , about ur life . Now , i just accept the fact thatwe never be together just like before . You know what ? I been trying hard to make you understand me well , and having a serious conversation . It about time we talking about our frienship but you seemed balming me and saying that i hurt you .  I know , you fall in love with that girl right ? Why you have to fall in love with all my friend or someone that related to my life ? First , you coupled with my cousin , then , my bestfriend , and lastly, my new friend ? Dude , you don't know how my heart ...

Tears won’t come So I came to this street for the first time in a while                                        But I guess it was a mistake e – I thought I’d be okay Goodbye – your cold Goodbye – voice Is still in the wind that passes by me I wonder where you are and how you’re doing Are you at the place where my longing touches? Maybe, maybe are you longing for me with the same hopes? It’s so hard for me without you, everything is hard In each moment I breathe, thoughts of you torture me I try and I try but Your traces come back to life and I’m afraid Like that awkward day when we first held hands My days spent alone still feel awkward Goodbye – your cold Goodbye – voice Still lingers in this street as I walk on it I wonder where you are and how you’re doing Are you at the place where my longing touches? Maybe, maybe are you longing for me with the same hopes? It’s s...

You're my best-friend, I don't know what I would do without you. You've helped me through a lot of stuff. You've always been there for me, & I've done the same thing. You're amazing. You're like family to me. I care too much to watch you get hurt. You seen me do it all! I love you. You've seen me cry, You've seen me fall, And most importantly you've seen me ball my eyes out. Thank you for always being there for me :'( My life was changed, turned, and twisted, when I knew our friendship no longer existed. I know I was wrong, I know I messed up, and that's why I'm sitting here typing this up. I'm sorry for all the things I let go to my head, I'm sorry for all the things that I said. I'll make it better I'll make it oh so right, as long as you promise us never to fight.

                         '' If i could back time , I should have treated you better '' there was this one friend I could always trust this one friend was always with me  he saved me in more ways than one he made me smile when everything was wrong then one day I screwed it all up that day at the derby I think he heard me I spoke from my heart as I was falling apart as I pressed send I should have known it would end I should have hit delete; then I wouldn't weep I cried all the way home; I felt all alone I want to tell him now he's the only one my heart would allow to talk to me at midnight to see me in the daylight does he realize  that in my eyes there are tears from the many fears of losing him forever?