Diaries of a rockstar girl

Again today, I wear a smiling mask, Go outside, and pretend nothing’s wrong But I wanna run to you But I walk with slow step My heart is bruised And my body breaks down I'm on my way , forget him . It harder than I thought and I was trying to ignore those feelings . You know , the feeling of loving someone and waiting for him to tell the same way . It really hurts my heart . I cannot turn back time where I suppose met him for the first time , talked to him and our friendship become closer . But , I was regret . The moment he slapped me before , I should hate him . Hate him because he's doing that to me . He ruined our friendship that we're never ever talked again after that . I shouldn't forgave him a year after that . I should think first , and feel the pain that I get for still cared about him . And the most important , I shouldn't loved him . It was the biggest mistake that I have done in my life . And maybe it's true , this month is the en...

Cause you are my destiny  Don’t turn around and leave me,  don’t brush me off, don’t avoid me It was a coincidence , I stalked your facebook profile . I'm doing that for a long time , even when we're not close with each other anymore , Im still doing that weird stuff . Hrm , hai ? How are you ? I'm missing you so much . I really want to hear your voice . I still remember , the last day of school . I tried to see your face . In case you find out , I quickly look around . I'm afraid my heart will explode . And somehow , we managed to made eyes contact and yet I'm dying of seeing it . I'm too scared to do it before but I don't know how I gained an encouragement and energy to looked into your eyes . You know what ? I'm still thinking about our old days when you suddenly put some goldust on my face and ran away  with a big smile . I'm feel relieved that im alone that time and none of my friends being with me that time . It was a happy ending ...

 Hey all , it's been a while . I really freaking miss this blog . I got nothing to say , so I wanna show to u guys my anime drawing . It doesn't look that pretty and perfect but I am hoping that u like it .  

I never realize , never think of our friendship will be end like this . Totally . I feel lost and frustrated . For all the time , I being his truly best girlfriend . Now , we ended and being stranger . No more laughing , stupid jokes , sharing bout everything . It all gone . I couldn't understand what's in his mind right now . He rushed making choice , without telling me or saying anything . He never told me before . He never told me that he in love with my best girlfriend . I thought I knew he well . But , I was wrong . Why he didn't tell me the truth ? At least , I know that his heart captured by my best girlfriend . Now , I'm looking like a fooled , the last person who know that he's now in a relationship with her . My heart crushed into pieces . It never turn back to normal . I feel nothing but feels like betrayed by my own best friend . Did I done something that insult or making him uncomfortable ? Everything was fine . I'm not argued with him before th...

A girl who feel strong for her life . A girl who still waiting for someone that she could never have . A girl who listens to a sad love song when she get alone . A girl who refuse to let go of her heart for another guy that loving him . A girl that hide back her tears . A girl that who stare at other cute couple that date infront of her . A girl that get high hopes then hurt the most . A girl that tried to be the best to winning her crush heart . A girl that who secretly stalking her crush on facebook or at her real life . A girl that be her crush bestfriend so to get know what happenning at his life . A girl who listen when her crush telling his problems . A girl that act cool even when her crush told her that likes other girl . eventhough I'm happy for all this .. inside , I'm not fine . I'm not okay . :(

Let's talk bout ' Friend ' . You know what ? I have a very best friend from 3D and we always hang out together . Sometimes , I went to her house and she did the same too . We're always sharing everything , mostly bout our crush . She really a good listener and she always helped me out wherever I having a problems . She always try to makes me smile and trying to give me an advice . But now , both of us no longer get along . I don't know how should I react ? Did I make mistakes ? Or hurt her feelings ? Everytime I see her , she makes me doesn't even exist in this world . She act like she doesn't know me and makes me sad , she doesn't even want to see me . I'm sorry if I busy too much that sometimes I can't talk to you . Okay ? I'm having a problems right now and I really need some space and time to think about it clearly . So , I wouldn't make any mistakes again . I miss you , Evan . :')

Words that will make you hurt if you believe it . Trust me ~ 1 . i love you 2 . i'll protect you 3 . i miss you 4 . i promise you 5 . i can't stop loving you 6 . forever yours 7 . i won't hurt you 8 . give me a chance 9 . i won't do it again 10 . i'm sorry It all lies . No matter how nice you are forgive him / her . At the end , they hurt you badly . With their own words . So , save your heart from someone who don't appreciate you .